Lose ‘em how ya got ‘em
Blu is a Mood – Blu Cantrell
The words said to me by #48’s wife via email during a brief exchange a few months ago. Every now and then they haunt me. I wonder if that will be my fate. Had I known, would I have done anything differently? I really don’t know. But I wonder sometimes if I’ll lose him to another chick from his past the same way his wife lost him to me.
I still check his phone. I try to fight the urge so I don’t check it as often, but I still do it. And doing it today pissed me off. Is it my own guilt? A name that his wife brought up is haunting me. Is that my guilt because of my feelings/dealings with myType. I don’t know but I’m hiding behind tequila tonight.
juli wrote,
Girl I hope it doesn’t go down like that. I just lost the love of my life.. 2 wks before our wedding.. found out he f*cked anther woman. And then a week later had a different woman show up at my house that he had been seeing for months. We have a 6 month old daughter and I’m 14wks pregnant… I checked his phone and emails for the first year. NEver found anything. So I began to trust him. Now turns out he has been screwing women all around town and I never knew. He ALWAYS accounted for any time he wasn’t with me or at work. I TRUSTED. It got me nothing. Being a single mother of 4. I wish I would have trusted my gut from day one.
Juli!!! I am beyond shocked!!! I’m so sorry honey *big hugs* I’m trying not to be the person that checks and checks and checks and just trusts, but then what happens when I don’t? Is this the way love is supposed to go? I don’t believe that it is.
Link | June 15th, 2008 at 11:14 pm
Veronica wrote,
that’s usually what they say but it doesn’t hold 100% true.
I hope that it all works out for you.
As long as you keep finding things, you are going to keep looking. My brother once said though that it’s not snooping it’s investigating. You’re investigating the person you are with and if you didn’t find aynthing, you’d eventually stop looking.
I say it all the time that people have to prove that they can be trusted.
You just summed up my entire thought process right here. There has to be an end in sight; there just has to.
Link | June 16th, 2008 at 10:25 am