Crybaby - Mariah Carey 

What the hell is wrong with me?! Why did I send myType that damn email? Why did I let myself get upset by his typical unemotional, insensitivity? Did I think he’d changed? I know I didn’t. He didn’t say anything I wouldn’t have expected coming from him. Yet, I found myself emotional then and find myself emotional now.

We had a decent, light conversation going and I mentioned that I may come to Atl in July and will definitely be there in November. He told me his July was pretty full and he is being relocated in September. Why that caught me so off guard I don’t want to admit. I wasn’t prepared to possibly never see him again. See him less and under my own terms, yes. Never again, no. And I told him that. He said that he’d already thought he’d never see m e again when I moved to Houston. I asked him how he felt about that and of course in typical ‘myType’ fashion, he refused to answer. That pissed me off. That reminded me one of the reasons why we are not compatible. That ass will shut down in seconds and just refuse to open up at all. I can’t live like that. But I don’t have to, I’m not with him, so why am I trippin’.

Cause my stupid ass STILL isn’t over him.