Crossed My Mind – Jill Scott

Number 1: I find my co-workers brother who recently got hired on here attractive. There I said it.

 

Number 2: MyType is back in Atl. How does that affect me since I’m in Houston? You’d think it wouldn’t at all, right? Wrong, I still think about him far too much and often at the wrong times. My PMS includes major hormonal swings and make me have crazy sexual thoughts and inclinations to the point they scare me some months. I find myself thinking about him during sex at those moments. I don’t want to, but I can’thelp it. And I feel so guilty. But even outside of that, he crosses my mid more than I want him to. Perfect example, I got the myspace update earlier this week that he’d updated his profile so I went to look, just because I was killing time. I noticed that his message-thingy said he wasn’t adjusting to life so well. My first instinct was to send him a message and ask him if he needed anything. But I didn’t. I was so proud of myself. But I just emailed him a minute ago, and of course before I realized it, id hit send and sure enough I asked him if there was anything I could do for him. Even as his friend, given our history, I’m wrong. My motivations and intentions aren’t pure and I know this. I so want to be completely over him but I’m not. And I know more and more everyday he’s not right for me, not meant for me, not even good for me. Doesn’t change a thing though. *sigh*