Archive for February, 2006
Lesson# 59
1. When you have had a high BS tolerance for such a long time, you can’t try to lower that tolerance rapidly. It’s a gradual process. Because you have tolerated so much for so long you have to take time how to learn how to determine when you are tolerating and when you are working with […]
Easier to do the wrong thing
I should be tired of thinking…lol I have realized more so far this year that probably in the past two. Process, process, process. Anyway this took me longer than it really should have but it was years of undoing.
How sad is it that I can count on one hand the number of times I have […]
It speaks for itself
I talked to theVirgo last night. I can’t really explain what made me pick up and call him after having not heard from him since right before we were supposed to go out right before my birthday. I guess really because I still had a hard time believing he’s the type to not be straightforward […]
Whudathunkit?
Somewhere along the way, I have come to enjoy dating. I don’t quite know how it happened because I can’t really recall a time in the past that I have enjoyed it. There have been moments when I enjoyed counting the number I had “on hand”, but that usually only lasted a few days or […]
‘Tis official
I couldn’t be more thankful. I made it through both my birthday and Valentine’s Day without hearing from or receiving anything from myHero. That may sounds senseless, but this time last year proved otherwise. We broke up about three weeks prior to my birthday last year. That was the first breakup; the most terrible one; […]
Lacking Transparency
I never claimed to have perfected this controlling of my feelings and still interacting with said person in the best way. The wall that I put up, apparently was quite visible, although I didn’t realize it. I found out last night, when I got chewed out but not one, but two people.
TheModel was a little […]
Celebration!
It’s been a great weekend for me. I spent the weekend with my friends, both Friday and Saturday evenings and had an absolute fabulous time. Let me back track…
I don’t make a big fuss about my birthday; I haven’t in many, many years. And I think it’s because there were years between ages 10 and […]
Creativity flowin’
TheVirgo and I get into the oddest conversations. A few days ago we ended up joking about belching and passing gas and women versus men. Last night some how we go on the topic of birth control, which eventually led into a discussion about sex(no surprise there…lol) And I realized I have been 5 weeks […]
Dug Deep, Deep Down
My mind was really occupied this weekend thinking about the comments from my last post. It was a lot to take in and process and I really had to look inside myself. Comments always mean so much to me because they give me a new perspective that I myself can’t see because I’m walking it […]
Freakin’ self sabotage
Well of course I’m heading towards sabotaging a budding relationship before it barely has a chance to get off the ground. Wouldn’t be me otherwise. Last night, DS asked me what I wanted for my birthday. My answer was what I give everyone, “whatever you want me to have”. I have never asked for things […]
