Archive for September, 2005
Weakest Link
So here what pisses me off. Between the asshole of an ex-husband and a job that fails to pay sufficiently, I haven’t been stable in over a year now, which lapses into the time that my hero and I have been together. And in him playing the role he chose for himself early on, he […]
Girl Crush
Ever since I have accepted my sexuality, I have developed on crush on a girl at every new job I have started. The last job I held here in Atl before I moved away, I developed a crush on C. C embodied everything in a woman that I was attracted to. She was pretty, but […]
Good morning my love
What a better way to wake up in the morning then to a bouquet of flowers sitting at the bottom of your stairs where you are guaranteed to not miss them? Coupled with the sweetest “I miss you” card created.
My mom is coming in to town so of course I’ll be busy with her and […]Simplicity
I was supposed to have a date with J on Friday. He wanted to take me out as a part of his plan to play backup to my Hero. Those plans got cancelled when his childcare fell through at the last minute. So of course I ended up going out with my Hero. I already […]
Even the “right” thing comes with drama
I told CT today that I intent to tell my Hero about our tryst. He reacted about as I expected. He doesn’t see “why I should bother?” My Hero would be “better off not knowing”. “It’s gonna get out because my Hero has a big mouth”. I addressed each of his concerns. Why should I […]
Lying is not for everyone
When it comes to lying, my ability to be good at it is directly correlated to how close I am to the person whom I am lying to. To my employer, I can easily lie to call in sick or why I am late. To a friend whose call I didn’t answer, I can lie […]
Whispered in my ear
It was two nights ago, I took myself down memory lane reading #48’s old letters. And over the past two days I have been thinking over the evolution of our relationship; where he was, where I was, what we went through and where we ended up. I’ve been thinking about all the ‘what ifs’; most […]
Silly amusing moments
Some people are just plain mean. I mean that deep down no matter what the situation is always mean. My boyfriend from high school, Cole’s mama is like that. I used to think it was just cause she didn’t like me. She used to always catch us almost int e act, so i could understand […]
Past and present love…
One thing I can never say is I have never been loved. My first serious boyfriend and I were together since the tenth grade. He loved me hard. I knew it even when we broke up(finally) after 4 and a half years of mostly on, though sometimes off. I left because he didn’t “show me” […]
Slowly stepping up the game???
My Hero is reaching and I don’t know if I should be amused or flattered to just see it as male envy. Someone has gotten in his ear that they are “after me”. He’s been asking me questions for days and I can’t help but find it cute. I have to wonder if J hasn’t […]
