Archive for April, 2005
The beginnings of a backbone
It all just hit me like a bolt of lightning. And I couldn’t focus could sleep, couldn’t do anything until I released it.
“One day you are gonna wake up and I am gonna be gone. And I wonder if you care. Or if you will care when that day comes. I have finally come to […]Randomness
The Poet: I ran across the Poets page on BP about 2 Sundays ago(yes I know what I said about BP…lol). I was feeling real down after having spent some time with my Hero. The Poets page was filled with poetry of all types: erotic, love lost, love found…and the song playing was “He Loves […]
Who loves ya more
The hardest thing to live with is you’re loved by many, and everyone’s intentions for you are not always in synch. I recognize that I am loved in differnet ways by different people for different reasons. While the love my Hero has for me is true, that doesn’t mean it is rigth for me. And […]
Bonded by music
We you live, breathe, eat and sleep to music, you are happy to find someone that has the same love for music. That has always been one of the bonds that to this day keep my Hero and I bound to each other. It was dancing that first brought us together, and we find time […]
The confusion continues
One of the biggest factors that kept me from thinking my hero was married, despite the lack of time we spent at his place, was the fact that he was with me so ofetn during the week. Before we first “broke up” he was at my apartment on average of 4 nights a week. With […]
The evening after
It’s not him getting up and leaving that is the hard part. It’s the night after he’s been here, lying in my bed, kissing me, loving me, holding me as we fall asleep, creeping up into my soul despite my efforts to keep him out. My Hero has always had it like that. That’s part […]
Demonstrating longevity
Being so busy with school and work and my so-called personal life, I don’t meet people as much as I used to. Still meeting people online of course, but those that I have an interest to get to know offline, I simply haven’t had the time. Surpringly they both have been really patient, knowing my […]
Misreading the signs
I know me. I see what I want, when I want in a situation. So I am trying not to look too much into the “little things” between me and my at work crush. Like his buying me breakfast this morning, unexpectedly. Like yesteday, him going down to the cafe with me yesterday, off of […]
The thin line between friends and lovers
I was surprised to get a text from my Hero letting me know that he was back in town asking me to call him when I got off work. Though I got off at 4:30, I waited to call just to let him know that I’m not at his beck and call; this power striggle […]
Mysterious Magnetism
Every now and then, I’ll log into my BlackPlanet page, just for amusement. BP is a meatmarket and I wouldn’t dare expect to find any qualityon there. I’ve met a few folks from there…no quality whatsoever. There was note in there today from a guy I went out with couple times about this time last […]
